A Meaningful Moment

Meaning is infused in all we do, all we are, all we think and breathe.

Do we try to see meaning through all the threads that run through our lives? Do we see the connections? Do we need to?

I don't think we need to see the connections to get along in the world, but for the sake of wholeness, of oneness of the universe, it certainly helps to notice, if not participate in the meaning and connection of everything.

When we watch a moving video, see a piece of artwork, hear a certain song, experience something amazing, we are connecting to the whole. The meaning does not need to be defined in words, cannot be confined to just one feeling. It is connecting. It is meaningful, and when we connect through art or experience it is more obvious and poignant.

But in between the momentous moments of clarity and connection, every moment has meaning. All we do, breathe, see and experience has a connection to something else, however far removed or undervalued.

How often have I lived my life as if it offers no meaning, no connection to the whole. It is a delusion. We are all connected. Everything we are matters.

You matter. What you think and do and say and breathe makes a difference.

How will we use that influence? How will we wield the power of our being?

I choose to believe that we will use it to benefit the world in which we live. We are all slowly making the world a better place.

Being Is Enough

I am an American Original. I am taking back my power of breathing. I am going to do my best and I will be satisfied with the work I complete today.

There is more to it than physical ailments. At times I lack energy. I can come in here and write from the heart and let my energy be renewed. Allow my energy to be renewed.

Allowing. Being patient and allowing the universe to work. I can be patient. I am allowing.

When I think of being patient and not being patient I think of my life. However patient my exterior may have seemed, in reality, deep down I have been impatient. Not willing to wait to buy something. Unwilling to try something new. Impatient for later to be now, instead of just living in and enjoying now.

I understand now that now is all we have. I want to spend it the best I can. Every now that is offered to me I want to spend in the best possible way. But I also don’t want to deliberate mentally over every possible choice and outcome. I have over-thought most of my life. I am ready to be done with that. This is where being comes into play. My intuition, my gut, tells me what to choose, where to focus my energy, what to do, but my brain and thought patterns often override what my intuition tells me, or worse yet, drown out that still small voice completely.

And so, I am still left with a now, a present from which I can create anything. What do I do with it? I start creating. By writing down my thoughts, dreams, being and life into form I am embracing the now, at a very basic level.

At an even more basic level I can choose to just be. No creation necessary. Just being. Allowing myself to just be with no intention or expectation.

That is enough. Allowing myself to be is enough. The creations and the life lived are icing on the cake.

Allowing myself to be is enough.

Being is enough

I am enough.

I am worthy.

I am special, just like everyone else.

I dont need to do or create anything. Being is enough.

And here I am in the middle of it all again. Creating. Creating from being. From inside and outside. Together. Creating.

Being is enough for me. All I have to do is be. From being my path will and does emerge. It comes from everywhere. It is everything. I am a part and all of the whole. I can think, but I am not thought. I am separate from thought. I am being.

My thoughts and actions have taken me here to this place, but my being has changed my mind and heart and soul completely. It is my being that will form my future life, by allowing it to be in the present.

Here and now I am allowing being. It does not speak to me. It only provides peace and quietness, a stillness of the heart and mind, from which I am able to allow the universe to pour forth creations. NO expectations. No requirements. Just allow the universe to work. No time or space limitations. No clock time accountability necessary.

Being is enough. But I choose to also get along in western society. So, I must let the analytical side of me take over at times, especially during work. I can allow that to occur without losing touch with my being. I can allow the universe to work that way, in whatever way it needs, without succumbing to that draw and allure of more, better, faster, harder. Less, lower, lighter, smoother.

Being is enough, while I enter into labor of the mind, I will remember that being is enough. I don’t have to do or create anything. The fact that I am is enough to prove that I am. No expectations. No judgements.

Being is enough.

Being is enough. I allow being to be enough for me. I don’t need anything else. I understand that to be the case. It is true for me. I choose to continue to function in the world as though little has changed for me. It is time true that I have experienced a monumental ground shift in my thinking and behaviors. But I choose to slowly allow these changes to seep into my life. I choose this slower route because it is a more natural and hopefully sustainable process of growth. I choose it because I don’t want to hurt my family. I choose it because of vanity - I don’t want to be considered crazy, though I am sure some already view me that way.

I understand. It is all happening in here. Being is enough, but I must also get along in the world, from whatever station I find myself in and so I will, and so I do.

I am reluctant to leave the page. A lot of growth took place in here today. Being is enough. It is clear to me that this is true. I understand also that I will continue to do what is necessary to get along in the world. I no longer have to resist it as bad or look at my times of creating and being as good. It is what it is. The universe will continue on. I will continue on.

At some point in my life, if I am able to deal with my bipolar and continuously work toward the vocational end I seek, I will be able to get along in the world more congruently with my being. Until then, my being is not lost. It is merely hidden and I am allowed at any time to let it shine. I am stoking the coals of my fire so that the light will be brighter when and where I choose to shine it.

For now, I know that being is enough, yet I will continue on in the ways I have created, while changing each of them to match the joy of my being. I sit here unemotionally writing this text, but inside I am filled with joy. Filled with joy because I know something now I didn’t know yesterday. I have a path forward. I am able to move along and understand as I go. I don’t have to have it all figured out. I only have to continue on in my path.

Being is enough. I am creating from being. My source is the universe, is being. All is one. One is all.

I have learned that being is enough for me. I don’t have to add anything to it. I only need to take away other things from my life. Strip my life down to its simplest components. I am a part of the whole. That means I may be limited in the depth to which I can cut my life to the bare bone. That is fine. I haven’t even begun to scratch the surface, yet I am already thinking of the future state. That is okay. That is planning at work.

Don’t forget that step of change! Research and planning.

Being is enough. How often do I find myself trying to fill myself up with something external? I smoke to fill myself. I eat unknowingly to fill myself. I even drink tea and water just for the purpose that my being already provides for me.

I only never noticed it before. Now when I reach for that snack, or the remote, or the book, or the paper, or the tea or water, I can say to myself: “Being is enough.” I don’t need anything more. There is nothing “out there” that can improve being “in here.” I just need to break down the resistance and let it shine. Be myself. Now that I know myself is my being, just let me be me.

There is no one I need to fight or remove in order to be myself. It is all within me. I only need to remove my inner resistance, and my outer resistance for that matter. Remove all resistance to letting myself be myself. This is a change that has already begun. I may be swinging wildly in the breeze right now, flailing and trying new things while I cling to old habits… It will all settle out and down. My path is one of change, permanent lasting change that allows me to be myself completely. Being is enough. Let your being come through. Let it shine.

Time, Creating and Energy

We are all one together. This is all of us. Everything is one. All is a part of the whole. We are all a part of the whole at all times, and we are each the whole at once as well.

Time. Everything takes time. That is a law, and I am accepting of that law. I must dispel the anger I have toward going to work and working. I will write in here. I am experiencing anger. I am not anger. I am not fear. I am life. I am positive, happy energy! I can share that positive energy with all those around me! I can let the positivity shine!

Here I am writing longhand. I am writing down my thoughts and dreams.

Writing brings in the present for me. I am allowed to get writing done, but I don't need to plow blindly forward in an effort to get more out. I need only to write my way through situations and see myself, changed, on the other side. What does it take to change a human? Something beyond the mind. The mind tricks itself into thinking it has control. In reality, being has control, mind and ego have stripped being of autonomy. But it is different. It is what it is. There is much out there. There is much in here.

Writing is living. I am alive and living. "I'm alive and kicking...." What needs to happen for me to create and share? Nothing external, it is all internal. I need to allow myself, allow the universe to create. I need to allow the creations to be shared. I need to not be concerned about feedback I may or may not receive. I just need to let go. Do nothing while leaving nothing undone. Two modes: write & create mode, in here, in the pages, by hand. Then share mode, out to the world through the computer.

Allow the creativity to work and be worked. Allow the universe to create. Allow the universe to create. Allow the universe to create.

There is energy everywhere. I took that off a though horn that I felt and I let the universe get stuck and pull me along a bit on it's travels.

What we do is only a part of who we are. Where we work is only a part of what we are here for. There is clarity in illusion, and disillusion in clarity. We are all experiencing one thing that becomes many. It is always now o'clock. Never is it isn't the case. Now is constantly happening and shaping our lives. I am open to the signs. I understand the way the universe is working. I still worry. I must escape the worry. I can escape worry by being completely present and not allowing my thoughts to drift, but really, not allowing my thoughts to even be, a negation of thought. Let it all go.

Crossroads

I stand at a crossroads. To fall back into the old habits or to break free of the past. It is not a question anymore. I choose to break free of the past. I am not sure what that may entail, but I am certain that is what I will do. Find the way to be myself without having to carry any baggage. Just be myself all the time. The way of that is near. I am approaching the crossroads.

I know already what I am going to do. Do not worry. Have no fear. Do nothing while leaving nothing undone. Work without working.

It is clear what I must do. Pursue the dream at all times while doing without doing. Such clarity. Thank you, universe for that clarity. I am asking for more clarity and I have received it.

This is what the Lord says:

"Stand at the crossroads and look;

ask for the ancient paths,

asks where the good way is,

and walk in it,

and you will find rest for your souls."

Jeremiah 6:16

What Creating Is About

Creating is not about making something wonderful every time. It is about experimentation. It is about finding something new. It is about making something new, for better or worse.

Creating is about showing up, about getting to the place where we are able to create, setting the stage for ourselves so that we are most able to create.

To set the stage we may need to do some physical preparations. We might need to define a place to create. We might need to pull materials and supplies together in one place.

Setting the stage is not just physical, it also requires a mental and emotional preparation. Mentally clear and ready to create out of no thought. No thought requires that we practice clearing our mind of expectations and thoughts of what we are here for and what we need to create.

We clear our minds, but we also clear our hearts. We get through the emotional baggage surrounding whatever it is we are working on or around whatever is most in our way at the time.

Clear the air, clear the spirit, for it is from spirit that we create. We create form from the nature of the universe. We put into form what is formless in the universe. To do that we must break down our own resistance, we must remove ourselves from the process, and allow the flow of the universe to work unimpeded.

For some this comes naturally. We are always removed from the process, it is something that happens without our being there. For others, we must practice it,

Create something new. Create something that has not been here before. Get out of the way of the universe and allow something marvelous to take place.

The resistance that we each represent can be conquered with one tool. Presence. If we are ultimately present at the time of creation, we cannot help but be free of resistance. The resistance comes from a reluctance to be a part of what is.

Do not resist the now, become one, become part of it. It is all for the better. It is all for growing and creating and changing. We are all making something wonderful. Take joy in taking part.

Once we have entered the creating with presence, just stay in the flow. Allow it to work as long as it is necessary, no need to ask if the flow or project is finished, we will know when it is done. We can gently ask when we feel it is done if it is done and we may or may not get a gentle response.

What can we find in creating that cannot be found elsewhere? A chance to be a part of the universe in the same way that the universe is a part of us. We were created from energy and matter, and we can create again from energy and matter in a never ending cycle. It is something special that we each have the ability to do and create. There is something magical about all of it.

Creating is about carrying on what we came here to do. To create something is part of our heritage. We can continue to create and carry on our tradition.