202611090626

Summary:

In which

Reflection:

Yesterday was pretty good... social. Didn't accomplish nearly as much as Saturday... but it wasn't a failure.

Entry:

I am worried today will be a failure....But it doesn't have to be -->

Remember:

• decide to be happy
• catch my negative thoughts and turn to positive
• take physical action, regardless of how I feel
• write out the cobwebs first thing in the morning - on paper is more important than online here, is more important than the digital journal.
• Have a list to execute... not too long though, not filled with too much I know I'll never do

Insight:

I have the tools and ability to become a positive and happy person.

202611081000

Summary:

In which I mumble then find some clarity.

Reflection:

Yesterday was the most productive day I had since.... I don't know when... years. At least 2 years prior, I had not been as productive. And if I'm honest with myself, I think it was much further back than that, possibly all the way back to 2018... and before.

And that is certainly going back a ways.... Wow, like 8 years... not as far back as I thought - 13 years I thought... but back quite a ways.

Entry:

What will I write about today...? Right now, what will I write about?

This will work... dark mode... dark mode is legit... Dark Reader... beautiful.

And another configuration, a configuration, a configuration... all these things, all of them, from start to finish from start to finish to finish to start.

And now, what am I up against and what am I going to write about?

The day has gotten away from me... and what did I actually learn?

In the previous posts

Insight:

I can be very, very productive - if I am in the right mindset... which I can get myself into, by focusing and executing with action.

202611060508

Summary:

In which I ramble and decide on public posts.

Reflection:

Yesterday - a day. Not bad, relatively productive at work... did some things at home, straightened, wrote, read, had a good conversation... these things.

Entry:

I don't really know what I am going to write here... I don't really know or understand any of it, or know what it is all about or understand what these things mean... It is simple: I am not a bonafide or substantial writer... but I know what life is about, because I am living it. I know what the meaning means.

I had started this blog on blogger in order to ... in order to trace the arc of my life.. a storehouse for creative... etc. etc.

Then I moved to davebrey.com, then I moved to daboluv2.wordpress.com... these changes felt like growth but really, they turned out to be misdirection.... because the world, the internet, is giving me page views on nobushel.blogspot.com... does that mean I should move and cowtow to this space? Sure! why not?

Go where the audience is, don't have to hide in obscurity... but there is a lot on here, a lot of entries, a lot a lot of entries... 

Okay... that is what I will have to do - write a blog entry on here, because this is where my audience is, then cross post it to daboluv2.wordpress.com. that is acceptable. I can do that. I certainly can.

I'll just have to leave a little time at the end of my writing session in order to send this cross post like.

So, what sort of insight and clarity might I reach today? 

Constructive Living by David K. Reynolds.... what a great book! Definitely in my top 10... in fact, let me list out my favorite books, so I can remind myself:

1. A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle

2. The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle

3. Four Thousand Weeks by Oliver Burkeman

4. Constructive Living by David K. Reynolds

5. Essentialism by Greg McKeown

Those are the books I continue to come back to.... The first two, by Eckhart Tolle, just over and over again add layers of meaning and insight to my life. I listen to the audiobooks constantly, and have re-read them several times... in fact, I should re-read A New Earth again soon.

Moving forward... again.

Summary:

In which I stumble and fall.

Reflection:

Yesterday - a day. Not one I want to look back on. Just move forward.

Entry:

I'm not sure what to write here. I know that I can benefit from writing... but I don't know what to write. Maybe if I just write... and write and write... these things are all. All the things.

I might be tired, but I should still just write over the tiredness... I've made a true mess of my table here in the basement.. I should fix that... but I am lazy... no, I'm not just lazy, I don't care. So, what can I do to care? Get involved... do the things... do the things the things.

All of this... all of it, here and now, do the things.. the things... do them and do them well. Now what matters... what matters? What makes a difference?

And so, this is it... what matters. What matters. Don't know what else to write about. Probably will stop here then. 

Insight:

Little to none

202611011050

Summary:

In which I have a revelation.

Reflection:

Yesterday I actually did some things around the house. This morning I went for a walk with Gus... and now I am writing... these are the things...

Entry:

That's not why I'm doing it. No, that is why I'm doing it: to help people. To help people... I want my writing to help others, that is what I want from my writing... and my music, and all of my life... interesting. Very interesting. Indeed.... Indeed.

Insight:

I want to help people.