I am an American Original. I am taking back my power of breathing. I am going to do my best and I will be satisfied with the work I complete today.
There is more to it than physical ailments. At times I lack energy. I can come in here and write from the heart and let my energy be renewed. Allow my energy to be renewed.
Allowing. Being patient and allowing the universe to work. I can be patient. I am allowing.
When I think of being patient and not being patient I think of my life. However patient my exterior may have seemed, in reality, deep down I have been impatient. Not willing to wait to buy something. Unwilling to try something new. Impatient for later to be now, instead of just living in and enjoying now.
I understand now that now is all we have. I want to spend it the best I can. Every now that is offered to me I want to spend in the best possible way. But I also don’t want to deliberate mentally over every possible choice and outcome. I have over-thought most of my life. I am ready to be done with that. This is where being comes into play. My intuition, my gut, tells me what to choose, where to focus my energy, what to do, but my brain and thought patterns often override what my intuition tells me, or worse yet, drown out that still small voice completely.
And so, I am still left with a now, a present from which I can create anything. What do I do with it? I start creating. By writing down my thoughts, dreams, being and life into form I am embracing the now, at a very basic level.
At an even more basic level I can choose to just be. No creation necessary. Just being. Allowing myself to just be with no intention or expectation.
That is enough. Allowing myself to be is enough. The creations and the life lived are icing on the cake.
Allowing myself to be is enough.
Being is enough
I am enough.
I am worthy.
I am special, just like everyone else.
I dont need to do or create anything. Being is enough.
And here I am in the middle of it all again. Creating. Creating from being. From inside and outside. Together. Creating.
Being is enough for me. All I have to do is be. From being my path will and does emerge. It comes from everywhere. It is everything. I am a part and all of the whole. I can think, but I am not thought. I am separate from thought. I am being.
My thoughts and actions have taken me here to this place, but my being has changed my mind and heart and soul completely. It is my being that will form my future life, by allowing it to be in the present.
Here and now I am allowing being. It does not speak to me. It only provides peace and quietness, a stillness of the heart and mind, from which I am able to allow the universe to pour forth creations. NO expectations. No requirements. Just allow the universe to work. No time or space limitations. No clock time accountability necessary.
Being is enough. But I choose to also get along in western society. So, I must let the analytical side of me take over at times, especially during work. I can allow that to occur without losing touch with my being. I can allow the universe to work that way, in whatever way it needs, without succumbing to that draw and allure of more, better, faster, harder. Less, lower, lighter, smoother.
Being is enough, while I enter into labor of the mind, I will remember that being is enough. I don’t have to do or create anything. The fact that I am is enough to prove that I am. No expectations. No judgements.
Being is enough.
Being is enough. I allow being to be enough for me. I don’t need anything else. I understand that to be the case. It is true for me. I choose to continue to function in the world as though little has changed for me. It is time true that I have experienced a monumental ground shift in my thinking and behaviors. But I choose to slowly allow these changes to seep into my life. I choose this slower route because it is a more natural and hopefully sustainable process of growth. I choose it because I don’t want to hurt my family. I choose it because of vanity - I don’t want to be considered crazy, though I am sure some already view me that way.
I understand. It is all happening in here. Being is enough, but I must also get along in the world, from whatever station I find myself in and so I will, and so I do.
I am reluctant to leave the page. A lot of growth took place in here today. Being is enough. It is clear to me that this is true. I understand also that I will continue to do what is necessary to get along in the world. I no longer have to resist it as bad or look at my times of creating and being as good. It is what it is. The universe will continue on. I will continue on.
At some point in my life, if I am able to deal with my bipolar and continuously work toward the vocational end I seek, I will be able to get along in the world more congruently with my being. Until then, my being is not lost. It is merely hidden and I am allowed at any time to let it shine. I am stoking the coals of my fire so that the light will be brighter when and where I choose to shine it.
For now, I know that being is enough, yet I will continue on in the ways I have created, while changing each of them to match the joy of my being. I sit here unemotionally writing this text, but inside I am filled with joy. Filled with joy because I know something now I didn’t know yesterday. I have a path forward. I am able to move along and understand as I go. I don’t have to have it all figured out. I only have to continue on in my path.
Being is enough. I am creating from being. My source is the universe, is being. All is one. One is all.
I have learned that being is enough for me. I don’t have to add anything to it. I only need to take away other things from my life. Strip my life down to its simplest components. I am a part of the whole. That means I may be limited in the depth to which I can cut my life to the bare bone. That is fine. I haven’t even begun to scratch the surface, yet I am already thinking of the future state. That is okay. That is planning at work.
Don’t forget that step of change! Research and planning.
Being is enough. How often do I find myself trying to fill myself up with something external? I smoke to fill myself. I eat unknowingly to fill myself. I even drink tea and water just for the purpose that my being already provides for me.
I only never noticed it before. Now when I reach for that snack, or the remote, or the book, or the paper, or the tea or water, I can say to myself: “Being is enough.” I don’t need anything more. There is nothing “out there” that can improve being “in here.” I just need to break down the resistance and let it shine. Be myself. Now that I know myself is my being, just let me be me.
There is no one I need to fight or remove in order to be myself. It is all within me. I only need to remove my inner resistance, and my outer resistance for that matter. Remove all resistance to letting myself be myself. This is a change that has already begun. I may be swinging wildly in the breeze right now, flailing and trying new things while I cling to old habits… It will all settle out and down. My path is one of change, permanent lasting change that allows me to be myself completely. Being is enough. Let your being come through. Let it shine.
