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The Beginning



Here is where the story begins. Following the build up and growth of one individual over the course of time.

Not to get hung up on details. 

Not to be bogged down by extraneous feelings. 

Not to fear. 

But to learn and grow. 

To evolve. 

To document.

To perceive.

But most of all to show. 

To share. 

To encourage.



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Potential, the Future, Life, and the Art of Letting Go

I have been told during my life that I have a lot of potential.

In fact, most recently, a YouTuber told me I had "so much freaking potential."  I felt honored, and approved the comment even though it had landed in my spam box.

But what does it really mean to have potential?

How does it really impact your life to have potential?

For some reason, it reminds me of the black spot from Treasure Island, a summons to the grave.

Potential tries to define what MAY develop in the FUTURE.

However, I am trying to be concerned with what IS developing in the PRESENT.

When does potential become reality?

What does it take to make potential the actual reality?

How can we go beyond what is potentially identified and deliver something beyond what we thought possible?

What does the FUTURE hold? Who can possibly know? NO ONE.

I want to be able to completely think about the present, about what is going on right now, at this second, in this moment, and have it be the best it can possibly be.

I need to be attentive.

I need to be vigilant.

I need to be aware.

I need to focus.

I need to do so many things, but at the same time, I have to do nothing but live life, and let it be lived.

I need to be intense and relaxed at the same time. I have to do so many things.

What do I really have to do though? I have to merely be.

I have to merely allow myself to be and

enjoy and

share and

create.

So many things.

There isn't just one thing.

But there is just one thing.

LIFE.

I am enjoying life right now. I am letting the writing happen. I am enjoying the process of writing and relishing the idea of sharing it with the world. But that is the future.

I am a part of the present and the future at the same time.

Am I capable of letting go of the future, what may or may not be in store for me, and just live my life? Am I going to live in the present at this time right now, right here, as I work and live and breathe?

There is only one way for me to be myself completely, and that is to let it all hang out.

So if the potential and the future are all rolled into one thing, am I willing to give up that thing? Am I willing to give up what might be and live into what IS right now, at this very moment?

Am I willing to let my potential go, and just do the best that I can in all areas of my life?

Am I willing to reduce potential and the future to mere ideas and realize that right now, RIGHT NOW, is all I have to make anything different, whether past, present, or future.

RIGHT NOW, this MOMENT, this BREATH, THIS SECOND, RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW

IS

the only time that I can

change

be myself

live fully

be truly alive

be one with the universe

breathe completely and fully

learn something new

remember something old

embrace the present

diminish the past

forget the future

and live

my

fucking

life

like

I

deserve

to.


Now is all we have...

Don't waste it...

Do not be afraid.

We are all here.

But we can only do it now.

And if you get lost, get fucking found again.

It's time.

The time is now.

Let's do this thing.

Embrace the present, forget potential, hope for the future, let go, and live into the now.

I am alive.

Can you feel it?

I can.

I can feel you too.

Beat your heart out.

Go make something wonderful.

And share it.

R
I
G
H
T

N
O
W

:)



A Few Words of Encouragement (Or Lies I Should Have Convinced Myself Were True When I Started)

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There is no one in the world like you. No one can make what you make. Though you may struggle and want to give up, you shouldn't. The only way past a hurdle is over it. Get up and jump.

You make your own way. The world does its own thing. Don't worry about it. What I mean is, don't pay any attention to what the world does. It doesn't concern you. You concern you. What you do all the time is what is important.

You are capable of anything, except what you won't try, or what you give up on. Try everything. Don't give up. Forge ahead as far as you can, then go a little further. You will be amazed at your ability to sustain and strengthen your resolve.

When its getting dark, light a torch. If you don't have a torch, light a candle. If you don't have a candle light a match. The light will guide you, but you have to shine the light. You have to be the one reaching out your arm with the light at the end of your fingertips, searching in the darkness for the path.

The road will rise up to meet you. You are on your own journey. You can't make a wrong turn. Just as it is impossible to get lost anymore, it is impossible to get lost anymore.

You already know the way to go. You already know where you want to be heading. Head in that direction. Become the person that you want to be.

There are no better ways to do what you are doing, because no one else is doing what you are doing. Don't search for a better way, just keep doing what you are doing. Just keeping making stuff and putting it out there.

There are no wrong answers, because there are no questions.

The only question that you have to ask yourself is... nothing. Don't ask questions of yourself, provide statements of fact. Get lost in the obvious.

Your audience is too big. Don't write for everyone. Write for one person. Write for one person, all the time. You can change the person you write for at any given time, but don't try to write for more than one person at a time. The audience is only ever one person at a time anyway.

There is no great time to blow up on the scene and infiltrate the world. There is only now. There will only ever be now. Allow now to be,  and be yourself now.

This is too cryptic, too vague. What I mean to say is, be yourself. You try so hard to be the person you think you should be, the person you think other people will like and react to. Just be yourself. Hang the rest out to dry.

What does it mean to be true to yourself? I feel like I want to say that, that you should be true to yourself, "to thine own self be true", but I think what I really want to say is.... Be yourself. Be who you are, foibles and problems and nonsense and all. Just let yourself be.

And when you let yourself be, share yourself. Others want to see people who are themselves, because that is who we all want to be. We don't want to be another person, we want to be most truly and fully ourselves. We want to be free to be ourselves all the time.

Keep creating. You may never ever get it right, but you need to keep doing it. What is right anyway? The rightest thing you can ever do at any time is to make something that is reflective of where you are in life.

Follow your dreams.

"Our truest life is when we are in dreams awake."
Henry David Thoreau

More than follow your dreams, live your dreams. Don't be like, "I can't live my dreams." Yes you fucking can. Just do it. Make your greatest dreams come true every minute of every day.

What do you want from life? Create it.

You can make anything. So make it already.

The best thing you can do is do.

You will give up before you even start. Know this about yourself, and then refuse to give up. Learn from your mistakes. Your mistakes are not the end. Learn from them and grow.

You are a beautiful person. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. Stop comparing yourself to others. Others don't matter. You do. You matter.

And because you matter, what you make matters, so keep making it, through the hard times and the good.

Don't create for others, create for yourself. You are why you got into this business in the first place. Make yourself happy, not others. Lead by following your own example.


Stop thinking about everyone else.

Stop thinking about everyone else.

You are creating because you can connect yourself to another person through writing, but you can't connect yourself to everyone at the same time. There is no mind meld when it comes to reading and writing. Everyone is affected uniquely as they experience writing and what is written. Leave your baggage out of it.

If you derail, don't worry.

You'll get back on track.

Keep making somethings. Keep trying. Stay with it. Stick to it. Make it happen. If you don't, no one else will.

You don't have time to stop making things. You don't have time to second guess yourself.

If I told you twenty years ago you would be where you are now, you wouldn't believe me, that's why you don't know where you'll be twenty years from now, because you wouldn't believe it anyway.

It's okay to not know the answer.

Make something of your life. No one else will.

Might as well live the dreams you have already.

No matter your best intentions, things don't turn out like you expect. That's not positive or negative, it's just a fact, Jack. So roll with it. Expect the unexpected: you'll be surprised anyway.

If you give yourself enough time, you'll talk yourself out of everything. Don't talk yourself out of this.

Save yourself a little time at the end to polish. Not a lot of time, like 2% of the making time is all you need. It won't be perfect, but that's what makes it perfect.

And this is the most important lesson of the day: stay grateful. You can't be anything without thanksgiving. Thanks to those who came before you, thanks to those who inspire you, thanks to those who formed your dreams, thanks to those whose dreams rest upon you, thanks to those who love you the most, but mostly, and most sincerely, thanks to the source of it all.

Thank you.

My New Speed

I have reached a new, strange place in my life. I am no longer looking forward to anything. I am no longer interested in anything either. I have come to an almost complete standstill. And yet, I am still alive. I am still living and going through the motions of my life.

My mind is almost completely devoid of thought, and my body rarely takes action. I am floating in the ether of reality.

It is an interesting and new place to be.

It is always a new and interesting place to be. I am always growing and evolving and learning and expanding.

But right now, it merely seems that I am floating.

Free of tethers and all expectations.

Why am I this way?

I have slowed down considerably. I do things with a deliberateness that I used never to employ. I am careful. Not wary, but full of care.

Even my typing and writing have slowed considerably. I do not type at a mad man's speed anymore, I merely write the words as they come.

I enjoy listening to music. I enjoy creating music.

I have been trying to write a book for the last 35 years. I have been unsuccessful. I am either not ready yet to write my book, or not qualified to write any book. I have become accepting of both possible scenarios. Only time will tell which one is accurate.

So this is my new speed. Slow. Deliberate. Careful.

I don't understand all the factors that have contributed to my new style, and I don't really care to.

I don't really care to do anything.

This all sounds rather depressing, but I don't think that it is. It is just new, and it is just reality. Taking things at face value. Not applying any spin to anything.

How can the slowness of this pace, the glacial meandering and expanding of my life, be part of this rapidly changing and moving 21st century?

I am behind the times, but I left the times behind long ago.

I am at once ahead of, behind and with the steady growth and expansion of the universe.

Best to be with it.

Best to be part of it. Best to be enjoying myself.

Enjoy Yourself

On the journey from the past to the future we cross through the present.

In the present only is the way of life.

If we try to focus our energy anywhere but the present, we become lost, transfixed on something that does not exist. There is no past or future, there is only now.

And what we decide to do now is what is important. Who we decide to become is what we decide to do. And to do is what we are called to do.

Action and action alone can seal our fate.

Action and action alone is what takes us from the past through the present into the future.

There is no other time than now.

There is no other place than here.

Be where you are.

Be who you are.

Enjoy yourself, it's later than you think.