Affirmations, Thoughts

I am an American original. I am taking back my power of breathing. I am going to do my best and I will be satisfied with the work I complete today.

My natural inclination is to give up and let things flow. But I know where I want to be, and letting things flow will not get me there. I am on the right track with self-discipline. We can get somewhere with that. Now here I am. Present again. Writing again, from the heart, from the universe. Breathing aloud my thoughts and hopes and dreams.

Our truest life is when we are in dreams awake. - Thoreau

That is my life. A dream. Being lived each moment of each day.

The truest way for me to do anything and everything is from the spirit.

Exercise. Sleep. Living.

We are all together. We are all doing the same thing. In the end it matters only that we do our best. Not try, but do.

Here we all are. Together. And experiencing life.

I am an American Original. I am positively thinking about my life. I can make any change I want to at any time.

Sometimes I am afraid I am going to lose my mind. I try not to worry about it. I try to remain present and here. Sometimes I succeed, sometimes I do not.

When I am in the throes of it, I experience everything, but I only notice certain small insignificant and negative things. I need more positive influence in my life.

Freedom Is All Around Us

Freedom is all around us. It is there for the taking. Freedom of everything. Freedom of spirit. Understand that we are not alone. We are all together. There is something special in all we are, all we have. We must make the most of it. Make the most by being the most. Being is where we are from. Let spirit lead us. Spirit and being are the same.

We are working toward the same end.

I have a book to write. The universe will write the book, I will just type it up. I must get myself disciplined to write it. I must wake up early every day and write until I must go to work, then write with any free time I have. It is clear. The end is clear. The path is clear. It has been opened before me. I must only enter into it. This is what I have been born to do. And so I must do it. But I need help. I need lots of help. I need the help of the entire universe. And they are here to help me. I am afraid. I am afraid I will not write the book. I am afraid it will not happen. I give up my fear. I enter the present. Here and now I am writing the story. Here and now in the present it is all happening. I am already relying on the universe for everything. I trust that it is all going to be okay, all going to be perfect in the end. I give up my fear. I know what I must do. I must get to it. I must do it. The sharing of everything else is secondary. I must create the book. The universe wants the book to be created. The book will be written. I will write it. Give me strength. I am strong. I am disciplined. I am ready.

More and more to do. Less and less interest. It is clear. The path forward is to write the book. The book of my delusions and a book that breaks down the ego. Reduces it to nothing. Dismantles it completely. The book will take time to write. I am afraid. I am not alone. The universe will write the book. I only have to show up and get out of the way. Show up and get out the way. Allow the universe to work. Allow it all to be. Allow it all to be.

No thought. No thought is presence. Being present allows for the world to grow. I have so much work to do. But I know it is the correct work. I know the correct work for me to do is out there waiting for me to do it. I will have to dismantle bad habits. I may have to struggle. I am up to the challenge.

One morning of writing does not a writer make, rather a habit of showing up to the page and pouring out what is within. The source comes from the source. And knowing it's source helps defeat the resistance at its own game. Learn to love. Learn to be with each other and not want anything in return. Give without taking, for the source will replenish all of us and each of us in turn. When writing, or doing God's work, focus on the energy at hand and specialness that all of it can afford us.

The universe is one. We are all one. One thing together. We all make the same mistakes, we all enjoy the same rewards. What we do to one we do to ourselves. What happens to one of us happens to all of us. We started together and we will finish together. It is not unbelievable. It is amazing. What we each want, we all get. What we all want, we each get.

Paradox. The paradoxical nature of belief and faith and reality. Reality is relative. We do not all have the same reality. We each have a different one.

We are all together. We are one. We are in the middle of an amazing voyage. A voyage from the end to the beginning. Creating is what I do. Making is my art and life. By writing I am present. Clarity is here. I am focused and straight.

Simplify

How can I simplify my life as much as possible? Know and understand that there are only two purposes to my life. To awaken, and to live my life in tune with the universe.

That is the simplest way to put what I think are the only things that matter in life. Of course family is a huge part of living my life in tune with the universe, and friends as well.

There are things in my life that can go. Things that don’t need to be in my life. Paperwork. The mailings we get all the time in the mail that simply are thrown in the garbage. What a waste. Why do companies still do that? After profit, after sales. The sales are all declining, the world is starting to understand that we don’t need more in order to be happy. We need less.

And with less, the companies are trying to fill us with more. And if we won’t take it, where will they stop? Will we be somehow forced to take the more that they are trying to sell us all the time? Is that a way for us to live? I don’t think so.

I want to simplify my life. I want to distill it down to the most finite things I can possibly work with. The only things I need. Right now, I need paper and pen and a Chromebook in order to live my purpose. But I have all this other stuff in my life that is taking up room. So I need to simplify. To remove the excess.

I have started to identify what things can be removed at work.

I am starting to identify what things can be removed at home. There are simple things that are awaiting decisions. Decisions require thought or intuition responses to things. I need to give my response to those items and decide what I am going to do about it.

I do not have the time or inclination to exercise or read, two things I need/want to do. I need to make time for them. I need to sleep less. I need to be more energetic with the time I am awake, more with it, more fully present, and in the flow as much as possible so that I can simplify my life. It takes energy to simplify your life. It is not something that just happens by being lazy.

I will become energetic.

I will live with enthusiasm.

Simple things are sometimes lost.

Find the simple things again.

Take time to simplify your life.

Start with physical objects.

Resistance to Life

Resistance to life and living stems from a desire to be anywhere but in the now. Now presents us with the ability to be and do what we want and can. Sometimes we trade our now for our later. That is the essence of work defined in western society.

Work, especially at a job we do not like, is trading our now for our later of being able to do the things we want to do. It is a trade. I want to have my now be made up of all the things I enjoy doing at all times. Reading, writing, creating art, playing music, spending time with friends and family. That is what I want to do with all of my now.

I want to stop trading my now away for money. But I have to live. And so I think about creating in the now and trading those creations for money. But I want everyone to have an equal opportunity to enjoy my creations. And so I think about creating multiple versions of my products in order that they can sell and be free at the same time. What is the meaning of life? To love, enjoy, share, grow… and a fifth one I can’t remember.

Writing for me enables me to be completely present in what I am doing. Completely free of expectations about what I should or should not be or should or should not do. I am free when I write. I am free when I create, and so I need to do more of it. Hence, what I am doing right here, creating.

I have been experiencing inner resistance to what is recently. It is causing me to have inner turmoil that I would like to resolve. It is what it is. I can will and allow my life to change, incrementally, but I also need to will and allow my life to be as it is for now.

Only through allowing and willing my life to change will I get to where I want to be, but by allowing and willing my life to be, I can be happy in the now. It is what it is!

Now is where I live. I need to constantly practice presence and be where I am and understand that what I am and what I am doing are working toward the perfect union of life in this universe.

I don’t have to understand it. I just have to show up with energy and enthusiasm and get out of the way. What matters is that I take a part in what I do, take a part in what I am thinking and saying. Be a part of the world around me.

It doesn’t matter if I am feeling shitty, those are just feelings based on negative thinking. I need to get out of negative thought patterns, and I really have come a long way on that already. I am worthy. I approve of myself. I am enough. Those are thoughts I know are true for me. I no longer go down the road of negative self-talk, though occasionally I dip into it.

What I am learning by living is priceless to my growth. It is necessary for my growth. I am given a true opportunity to live and love and be among the world.

I don’t know if anybody else around me is awake. I don’t know if they are and it doesn’t really matter to my journey, though I would like to have company. I would like to have a partner or two I can talk ideas with, but the journey is one of my own.

To live the Tao is to allow and will at the same time. To be one with the dichotomy of the world. Beauty and ugliness together in one place, for one purpose, the joy of the universe.

I am working on connecting, but I need to connect as often as possible. There is much resistance in me that I need to remove and get out of the way, and the best way for me to do that is to create. Through creation I am washing away the resistance, I am breaking it down into manageable chunks and getting it out of the way.

The resistance is there, but resistance is futile. I will be making my way, through the strength and power of the universe to experience something more amazing than ever before experienced or felt. There is much to learn, much to do, much to see. I am part of all of it.

There in the world there is so much to understand and be a part of.

I am part of all of the world and I am part of all that there is to see in the world. The universe is in me, and I am in the universe.

I am so grateful and thankful for my life, even the parts I don’t like right now. I have been given an amazing opportunity to wake up and smell the roses, to understand what life is about, and I am taking that opportunity and will be making the most of it, even with my faults as a human being.

Perfection is the goal, even knowing that it will not be achieved. Like Sisyphus I will push and allow the universe to work through me to accomplish it’s goals. Assuming the universe even has goals. Maybe just a flowering is necessary.

A flowering of human consciousness. I am part of that. I dip in and out of it, but I am there, I am trying to be present, trying without trying. Doing without doing. Just being. Allowing myself to be in my most natural state, which for me is a state of reflection and creation.

Creation for the greater good of the entire universe.

Now the rub is that I am having a difficult time seeing that my creations at work are beneficial to the entire universe. In fact, at times I feel that they are detrimental to the entire universe. The philosophy behind lean and my new role seems to be in congruence with the greater good of the universe, in eliminating waste, but I see the application to the whole and can’t get on board with it.

The reason I can’t get on board with it resides in me. There is nothing outside of me that is creating the chasm between what I want to do and what I am doing. I am creating it. My ego? may be creating it. My ego thinks that it is not getting what it deserves and that is stifling my being. So perhaps in saying I deserve an abundant life I should actually be saying I don’t deserve anything. The universe works as it wills, and I am along for the ride.

I am here and creating and writing because the universe allows and wills it to be so, as do I.

I am still here for a reason. That reason is to create. It is very clear to me, never has a purpose in my life been so well defined.

So the only thing I have to do is create. That is what I am here for, so that is what I will do.

What are you here for?

What makes you wake up in the morning?

What keeps you going?

Creation and the act of creating do it for me. I need to do more of it. And so I will.

Energy and Freedom

I have more energy than I thought I would have at this stage of the game. Writing is a part of my experience that cannot be separated from the experience itself. I am an artist. I am working on living as an artist. Money flows freely into my life.

I don't need to understand everything before I do it. I can't understand life before I live it.

The universe is all one. I have work to do in this universe. The main of it is to elminate ego and share. There is no secondary. I am here for a purpose, to live with the Tao and be of it, be with it. Back into it I went. I remembered my call back name and so I went. And I am glad I did. Not self-satisfied, happy. Content. To come home is a glorious feeling, especially after having forgotten where or when home was or is. I want to get control of my body and my schedule and my my mind. Now I smoke and eat too much, and sleep heavily. I want to be an ex-smoker and weight 185 lbs. and wake at the same early time every day to create. Those are my desires. I give them up to the universe to help me make them reality. Ex-smoker, rising early to create at a healthy weight. Not impossible. In fact I am already doing that. I have already succeeded. I am reluctant to leave the page.

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The universe is one. We are all one. We are trying to break free of the ego. We are losing. But we are winning at the same time. Positivity. Oneness. Wholeness. It is all something together as one. What are we doing? We are spinning our wheels. We need the path forward. Self-discipline. Focus. Concentration of efforts. Living on the path. Embracing the whole as one. Living our dreams. Working to see the light at the end of the tunnel, knowing we may never see it.

Break free. Live as one. United together. All of us. Every single one. No one gets left behind. Bring the plane of consciousness to everyone. Take what is needed only. Leave the rest. We are all together

There is something beyond dereaming and wishful thinking, and that is action. Take action today to bring about the reality we seek. There is no timeline. It is all in space. Reach out and grab it. The universe is responding. We are all together. We are learning. We are a part of the whole. The whole is us. We are closer than we have ever been before, we only need to tip the scale. The tipping point is close on a new state of consciousness, a new awakening, a new beginning. Plumb the depths of our being to find the source, then live it.

I am living from the source. All things are one. I understand what I must do, but I am afraid. I understand I must become the full-time creator I am/was meant to be. But I worry about the family and the house. It is all one. The creation and the freedom are all one. Together, not in a line, but packaged nicely together.

I am living the dream. The dream is my reality. I am creating as one. I am living as one. All my creations are from the universe, and from the universe I am receiving abundantly. Money flows freely into my life. I have an abundant life.

Create my way to freedom. The universe will be there making it all happen. Create my way to freedom. Create my way to freedom.

Everything is coming together. It is beautiful and perfect.