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Reflection:

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Yesterday was a fine day, I spent some time doing nothing, reading, eating (lots of eating), reading, sleeping... very lazy day in fact. Could it then be considered actually a good day? No, it could not. I was not working toward my goals.

They are actually goals, not dreams... < 200 lbs, > $1 million net worth, career in writing. These things are right and necessary, and these are my goals, not my dreams.

I can accomplish each of them. These are the tasks I need to do, they are simple and straight forward:

< 200 lbs

    Exercise daily

    Eat well

> $1 million net worth

    Maximize earnings

    Maximize savings

    Invest

Career in writing

    Write daily

    Publish often

Entry:

Today, I don't know what I am going to write, but I am certain that writing is the goal.... is the best use of my time.... 

Read some inspirational writing, first thing in the morning.

Self-discipline is my first goal. my first goal.

I shall gather those books together and put them at the front of my shelves... but not until it is later in the day.

What are the tasks I must do in order to achieve my dreams?

Write. Daily.

What do I want to accomplish with my writing?

    Help people... be more specific. Help people to take action to live their best lives.

    create a career in writing. Carve out a career in writing what I want to write.

What do I love to write about?

Myself.

Is that going to be a successful and worthwhile use of my time?

I don't know... I don't know.

Conclusion:

Do what needs to be done.

Gratitude:

I am thankful for the opportunities I have to achieve my goals.

Affirmations:

I am capable of achieving my goals.

These things you try to understand:

Reflection:

I don't know where my morning went. Oh yeah, I wrote a bunch and didn't do much else... read, walk the dog, eat breakfast... that's about it... and I woke up at 4am.

Entry:

I am again writing in here, and I don't really know why or why. But I have to do it, and so I am. I tried to do chores, and I did get a few things done but then I was overcome by resistance and I stopped. Is it resistance to what I have to do? Is it resistance to obligations?

Live at work. Work at home.

Yeah, these things.

Little research into Leisure Sickness... an actual thing.

Right, so now.... now what?

I only really have to walk the dog morning, noon, afternoon, night... 4 walks a day is sufficient...and that will be okay... that will be okay... So now what?

What will I do with myself and my time?

I am finished making myself do shit. I am only going to do those things that I want to do... but I'll never live if I do only those things I want to do... so how do I... turn what I don't want to do into something I do want to do? How do I?

Time for some paper journaling.. paper journaling... these things... these things indeed.

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Reflection:

Yesterday was ok. Didn't really do much productive, and I don't know that I will do anything productive today either. But it is possible for me to try, to certainly try to do those things that are useful and worthwhile. Yesterday, again - didn't do much helpful or useful. Now, what will I do today?

Entry:

Today's entry then will begin by talking about all sorts of things... what I mean is, it is hard for me to focus on what I am trying to say.

There is so much nonsense within me, and I have to figure out how to get it all out of me. For whatever reason, I think posting this to the internet for other people to maybe never but maybe once stumble upon is a legitimate thing for me to do and be. and all of this.

These things come and these things go, what would it matter if any of it made any difference? For nothing does. But this is not true... I am tired, oh so tired, of fighting with myself. Better and more likely, and more betterer is it to ... 

Bend like the reed. Do what needs to be done with willingness and flexibility. Not even willingness is required, acceptance. These are the things I need to do and I accept them wholeheartedly.

I can make a few ideas come to life here:

1. what matters and what makes a difference - common questions I ask with no answers given.

My 3 Goals

My 3 goals are below:

1. Be Healthy
2. Be Constantly Learning and Creating
3. Be Wealthy

My 7 Actions

My 7 Actions are below:

1. Love
2. Exercise
3. Eat Right
4. Learn
5. Create
6. Save
7. Earn