Change, Positivity, Goals

I need to change my outlook and my mindset.

I can do what I put my mind to.

Don't be afraid.

There are so many dreams to remember. 

I am wasting my time doing nothing. I am wasting my time on this writing. I am not creating or learning anything.

So what should I do?

I have plenty to give and use up, but at the same time I really don't have much to share around. Energy that is. I guess.

I don't know what to do.

Take action. Make action. Take and make action.  And run with it from there.

Give it a shot I guess. Accentuate the positive.

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So much negativity being shone down on how I am living and moving through my life.

I want to change that negativity into positivity.

Apparently positivity is not a word.

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Trying just to write what needs to be written in the time that I have.

The morning pages today were not written in the morning, but they were written. They weren't all written longhand (though some were), but in the end, the words were written, and the thoughts were processed, and that was/is the main goal.

What I want to do with my writing is express that what I am thinking about and learning is important.

I am reading The Writing Diet, and it is interesting, but basically a rehashing of The Artist's Way in many ways.

But that is okay. I shall not judge.

There are many ways in which I would like to be able to be more myself in every single way and every single trial and opportunity.

How can I be more myself?

Allow myself to be.

Allow myself to act.

I have stifled myself for quite some time and it is no longer working to keep my mind at bay.

"I am freaking out in my mind." - Car Seat Headrest

There are many things that I want to accomplish.

That is not true.

I want to accomplish only a few things:

1. Lose 60-70 lbs.
2. Make a living as a writer.

Okay, so maybe that is only really two things that I want to accomplish.

Let me go back to my other goals and see what they say for 2017....

1. Wake up on time every day, and stay awake until bedtime
2. Earn more than $100,000 / year creatively
3. Exercise daily
4. Quit smoking
5. Lose 50 lbs
6. Maintain goal weight less than 200 lbs

I have reduced those goals to fewer than six before I even started on this however.

1. Wake up on time every day, and stay awake until bedtime

I am working on this one, but it is slow going, since I have sleep apnea, complex, central, and I need to get an Auto SV treatment in order to get a restful night's sleep. I hope to get this contraption by the end of October, and be sleeping well in November. That is the goal.

I have clarified the remaining six goals into something less....

2. Get healthy

a) exercise daily
b) quit smoking
c) lose 60-70 lbs
d) maintain goal weight less than 200lbs

3. Make a living as a writer.....

a) Can I do this?
b) Is this possible?
c) What would I write?
d) Do I have anything to share?

So, in summation, I really do have only two goals...

1. Get healthy
2. Make a living as a writer

That is my goal, and that is what I want to be doing.

Now, what am I thinking I will do for the rest of my time here?

What do I think that I will be doing here and now?

1. I want to get healthy
a) lose 60-70 lbs
b) stay smoke free
c) exercise daily
d) maintain goal weight less than 200 lbs

2. I want to make a living as a writer
a) sell books on Amazon.com and at local bookstores
b) give away the blog content (it's how I give back)

Now what am I thinking about?

What am I thinking about doing now?

What am I actually going to do?

I am spending some time writing, writing away.

Time to move on.