Stop and Grow in Fits and Starts
Sometimes it can be frustrating. It goes in fits and starts. And just when you think you know what to say, you forget what you want to say. But you haven't really forgotten, you have just realized that what you were about to do was not exactly in harmony with the present moment, with what you really want to do.
Thoughts can run us in circles. We can spin round and come back to the same point after following a thought pattern in what we think is a new direction.
What if we bypassed thought? Or eliminated it? Could we still function? Could we still thrive?
Intuition. Following our gut.
Be present and rely on intuition. I feel like I should write instead "Make the best decision with the best information available."
There are more than two ways of looking at life, but there are two of them above.
In fact there are billions of ways of looking at life, precisely the same number of people that are on the planet comprise the number of ways to look at life. I am choosing to share my view. Or at least some of it. As I grow. As I change.
For I am always changing, and by changing I am growing, although I am already grown. I follow my own lead, with a billion stars of light and help from all of those around and before me.
I am growing in fits and starts. I am finding my way, finding my voice. A lot of times it does not come easily, but that is what forces the growth to occur, the fact that I have to work and strive and make an effort at times to pull something from nothing and to have learned from it and to put it out there for others to learn from or discard, that work makes me grow.
And if I do nothing I grow anyway, but in a different way, as in a hardening of my ways, wearing a pattern of behavior a little deeper.
My goal in this metaphor is to be fluid, to be flexible, to stretch myself and grow in the direction that I want to go, which is to create and to share. The daisy doesn't yearn or want for anything but it sure as shit turns its face to reach the sun. Be natural. Be super natural. Even if it doesn't go smoothly.
The Edges of the Picture Are Bending
There is the reason for creating. There is the reason for being. There is the force of being behind the reason for being.
There are 10,000 things to know and do.
Being is knowing.
Being is everything.
Be present more often. Allow yourself to be present.
You are nothing special.
You are out of practice.
You are learning though.
Enter the stream, lightly and quietly.
Breathe. Repeat.
Go slowly at first and build up resistance to resistance.
You will be a great warrior.
You already are.
You always were.
Remember who you have always been.
Be yourself. In all the ways that you know how. Discover how to be yourself in ways you do not know yet.
All it takes is time.
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