What the World Looks Like In the Morning

This is something big. This sky is breaking. These clouds are lifting with the sun.

And the world seems to know that this is what happens, but it's new to me.

And so I go along with what is happening, barely understanding and barely wanting to understand, instead just wanting to experience what is happening.

Have you ever woken up in the morning to see this sight?

We used to, every first day of the beach trip, go down to the ocean to see the sunrise. It doesn't happen all at once, like watching the sunset over the bay, you can see when the sun goes down once and for all and that last slice of the neon blood red sun disappears for the day, not to be seen again until morning.

But in the morning, everything happens gradually. It takes time and you can't really pinpoint the precise moment that the sun has risen. Maybe it happens the same way as the sunset when looking at the horizon, but I've never seen it that way. The sky gradually fills with light, and after a period of time, you realize that it is daylight again. 

Have you ever seen the sun without seeing a shadow too?

Turn away from the shadows, and look at the sun, if you can find it in all the light of the morning.

From the Journal: 0001

When I write [longhand] in this book, I fear that it is going nowhere, that what I write, what I create, what I think will be lost among the pages and not ever really make a difference in anyone's life.

The reason I came to writing and creating in general, was and is to make a difference. The songs I sing serve a purpose. The writing I write serves a purpose. It is all there, all made for the reason of helping and enhancing others' lives. So when I face the real fear and the possible fact that what I write will have little or no impact on anyone, I become disheartened. And then I don't create anymore. When in reality, I should be redoubling my efforts, and trying yet again to bring light into the darkness and shine my way to freedom of expression and truth. 

This is all to say that I think that creating is important in general, and specifically and especially important to me, personally.

---

And so I sat and decided to make a post out of it. Because sharing what I think is important, and what I create, is important to me. And so I will do it.

And so I have done it.